If like me, those who had gone through a similar diagnose of Edwards Syndrome, you may have already searched the internet for some kind of support and answers. Chances are you will stumble upon forums, chat groups etc on parents sharing their story and supporting other parents. Nonetheless no one will understand the level of pain you endure as we are all different individuals.
I do not want to ignore nor forget that my husband shares the same heartache as I too. Never have I witnessed the extreme sadness and pain in his eyes and especially after he laid our baby boy to rest. He was a broken man. What I really want to highlight in our blog is no matter what age your baby was born/died, either in your womb, full term etc, the pain is just as deep. Dads experience the pain too especially when the baby is wanted. I knew how he tried to ‘detach’ himself from the situation at first, but you can’t. You just can’t because for dads’, they are losing their precious baby too.
It’s hard for us not to talk about it. We talked about it right from when we were told the news for the very first time. We still cry every night before we go to sleep. We knew there was nothing we could do or have done. The impact of losing a child happens to both parents, both mothers and fathers. Of course as a mother I would be suffering different due to pregnancy hormones etc but I also acknowledge that my husband has a strong sense of parental responsibility and care towards our unborn son. Both equally painful and heartbreaking to live with. Living to know that you will lose you child no matter what you do is just horrifying and immensely unbearable.
Daddy is doing the best he can to get through this, Idrys. We all are. There is no way you will be forgotten. We are hoping we can through this pain for losing you by remembering you in every way possible. Even your brothers are missing you.
Sleep tight our beautiful boy x